my morning started like all my boring mornings. went to school to go to some big ol' church. Sop and I entertained ourselves inside Mats' old school bus, singing to the songs on the radio. we "sang" Ciara and Bow wow's Like You, which, by the way, was insanely fast. haha inside the big ol' church, we were bored to tears, as we weren't allowed to talk, nor even make our fave unnecessary movements. grr..
and to tears was it. literally.
the feeling keeps on churning inside my head and my stomach. and the mere fact that you don't own the person makes it even more painful. i wanted to cry my heart out inside the big ol' church but i chose "mind over matter". i pulled back my tears (and told myself, "a little longer aryt?") fixed my immaculately white uniform and faced God and reality once more. geez.
talked to Keenah when we arrived back at school. she had the same thoughts i had. i never wanted to talk ill of someone (ehem.) much more talk ill of my sister. but i did and im sorry, i tred to keep it as lowkey as possible. Keenah said she thought of the same way too. and she gave me news that hit hard on the chest.
"may filler kaya sila. kala ko alam mo. matagal na. laging ngang hawak yun ni ---- eh."
well no one told me, and it hurt badly. haha Ü
to Keenah, my ever so confidante. i love you. even though my life is garbage, you make it somehow prettier. i can bawl out every single problem to you and you would never complain. i so totally love you. hayyy..
when i got back home, i was a bit sober. random thoughts kept on lingering inside my little head. but i had to get back to the real world. specifically get dressed for Bea's birthday party at Rockwell. i grabbed the first thing i saw and dashed out our house and later knowing i was and hour ahead of them. haha Ü
met up with Bea.Nuggets, Trisha.Kisses, Chi.Mine, Tonio.MyGirl, Gail.Doggy, Remz.Pancake, Cha and Linsei. watched 40-year old virgin. (watch it. it's very "family-oriented".. NOT.. haha Ü) hi-lar-ious movie
after that and some strolls and playing at Power Station, we did what girls did best.
we boy-hunted. ;P
we found about 50 boys cute and 150 not-so-cute. haha we also saw Georgina Wilson, Vicky Herrera, Julius Babao and TinTin Bersola and Jessica Wilson and the gorgeous Mac Cardona. he wasn't that gorgeous on tv but in person? gawd. you can't see his hotness and now fall in love. haha
and to cap the day off, my dad asked me to fix my room. i ended with my memory boxes. some sad, some funny, some irritating and some very extremely super-ly painful. haha
sorry for the insanely long post full of nonsense. i just had to vent it all out. haha Ü
toodles. Ü