d O r T z

1.04.2006

title:{tsk..}

saklap.. just when things started (yup, started) to get better, good ol problematic me makes her big comeback.. oh yeah.. saklap's the perfect word to describe my current mind state.. i know im the one who's making things super complicated.. self-proclaimed disastrous dumbass..

after the loong, boring but fun christmas break, i finally (and unfortunately) had to go back to school. as usual, i was late in the morning. 5 minutes late. met louie pinca who was late too and she said i was gettin taller. woohoo. haha ü

told my ppgirls bout what happened, but i didn't let them in on the details, just a complicated summary of my so-called unproblematic problem. i admit, i was too angry, hurt, confused and whatever word you can relate to the latter, to tell everyone (or for that matter, anyone but Pem) everything. the story that would have killed me. tsk.. haha :P

but with the help of a hershey's bar, i was able to regain my sunny disposition and started doing my THE SW ahead of time. there was about an hour or so to waste. Pem told me she was had a hard time talking to me that day because she saaid i seemed to be super depressed and unhyperactive. nothing my hershey's bar can't fix. i was back to my good ol self in the afternoon, and was even able to fit the cheering costume because Honey wasn't allowed to.

went to Gabhei's house to bum around, bought donuts and sweat our asses off. i wasn't feeling well because of a fever last night.. went home dizzy, tired and (still!) depressed. geez.. i never felt so damn mad and lonely at the same time. haha :P i love my friends. i MISS my friends. good thing we're back together, or i would have died earlier.

just a thought in my mind, "let it die a natural death.."

how fast is nature anyway? no plans of suicide, not to worry.. just a simple thoughtless thought, brought to you by my depression and stupidity..

i will be hampee.. i AM hampee.. i will ALWAYS be hampee, i swear i will.

tsk.. saklap pare.. this day's a bummer..

i love you LOVE [zian]
i love you CARBZ [keenah]
i love you PUTUYZ [sha] hampee burday..

sorry for the useless post, i've been feeling WEIRDer than ever lately.. tsk.. for the last time, saklap!

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